Freedom In Speech

MONTH ONE IS DONE!
I am so thankful that Jesus has used me this month with Beauty for Ashes, Children Ministry, and home visits, but I wanted to share something that I have experienced freedom from.  Ever seen I could remember, I’ve struggled with stuttering. As I got older, these thoughts started coming into my head that people didn’t want to talk to me because they wouldn’t understand me and that I was stupid because I stuttered. I’ve talked about them with people, but this past debrief is when things started to change. At the debrief, we talked about this last month, got rest, and training. I went to a training called healing; the trainer asked us to think about something that was triggering to us this past month, pray, and ask God why it was triggering. God brought Something to mind. As I started to share my thoughts, I started stuttering badly. I got really embarrassed, and I didn’t want to speak anymore. As soon as the meeting was over, one of our squad leaders walked with me outside and went to a park. There she poured out a lot of truth. She helped me separate the truth from the lies. She encouraged me and prayed for me. Later that day, two other people spoke truth over me about my voice. Later that night, we asked God what is something that he wanted to refine in us. I felt like God wanted to refine my speech. God has given me a voice that he wants me to use. He wants me to stop being embarrassed by my stutter because people don’t notice my stutter when he uses me to speak. They pay attention to the words that I am saying. In the 23 years of being on this earth, I can genuinely say I’ve never experienced so much healing and freedom from my speech like I have this week. I’ve been able to talk to people and not worry so much about my stuttering and trust that they want to hear me speak and they don’t think I’m dumb. It’s still a struggle, but it’s not as big of a struggle. 

Exodus 4:10-11
Moses said to the Lord, “Pardon your servant, Lord. I have never been eloquent, neither in the past nor since you have spoken to your servant. I am slow of speech and tongue.”
The Lord said to him, “Who gave human beings their mouths? Who makes them deaf or mute? Who gives them sight or makes them blind? Is it not I, the Lord? 12 Now go; I will help you speak and will teach you what to say.

I love you all so much and thanks for your support! 

-Makalah Davis